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2006-03-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

okay. i shall blog today for the sake of huihui and qiuting.

i flunk all my tests, im too lazy to study for it. hmm. i've nothing to blog lah. life's still the same :\ BORING. March holidays are coming! :D suntanning & shopping :) but i have to work hard during that one week holiday, i think i'll fail my CA :(

well, there's a talk in the hall about the chinese electronic dictionary. my class was scolded because we were late. its because we're having Amaths lesson okay >:( she's so bitch. after the talk, i accompany jx to walk to bukit merah to take the bus.

reached home at 4. i din go for tuition today, i told the teacher i was sick :D
that's all for today. bye

2006-02-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

okay. i din blog for sucha long time. its like i'm so bottled up for the past few weeks cause i couldn't blog. and i couldn't find my bestie, he was like so busy with his hmk that he couldn't answer my phone calls. i was so pissed off lah :(

i dont wanna wake up in the morning. i dont feel like going to school cause its friday. and its a cca day! i'll have to stay back for my bloody cca and face that bloody teacher. oh, this is so fucking okay. serene and yong kee was so mean to me. they bullied me lah :(

during reading period, i did my biology hmk :D i was lucky that i wasn't caught by teachers. if not, they'll complain to mrs low. mrs seetoh is so fucking, i was just discussing the Renu contact lens eye-washer case and she scolded us. she's a fucking teletubby :x then its biology lesson, ms wu gave us a MCQ test suddenly, without even telling us beforehand. but luckily, i managed to pass the test :) i love biology but i hate to remember all those information in the textbook. its so bloody long!

during recess, i was teaching may mathematics so seejia was like joking about it. i laughed okay. he's so cuteeeeee. i really love this cute friend of mine :) it was so hard to teach may mathematics cause she doesn't understand a single shit that i taught her. but in the end, she seem to understand it already? Emaths test wasn't that difficult to do but i left out the second last question. i din listen to class so i dont know how to do :) anyway, i dont give a damn okay. i'll only study for Amaths test cause i fail this subject terribly. i got to work harder for this subject lah. if not, i'll regret it :

after cca, i went to eat with jiaying, jx and phuijie. we're of the same kind. they're as crazy as me :) we took neoprints! and guess what, i saw the handsome teacher mr. taddy. he's with a girl (double of my size) at actioncity lah. im really so pissed off >:( he's so handsome, friendly and cute. and i think i really kinda like him. he's also damn smart cause he's studying in RIJC. aiya. im dreaming like a bloody fool.
he + me = impossible
you know why? erm. i, myself also dont know the reason. i just feel so :(

yeah, and i got home at 730. mum's nagging at me for being so late. i dont give a damn to anything she says. today's sucha fucking retarded day. ewwww :(

im a song without a soul ;

2006-02-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

erm. my computer's fixed so now i can blog. i din update for weeks :( well, im so busy with my school work. i can just heck care about my computer. i dont really feel like blogging. im too lazy and tired. i'll blog tommorrow, its late now, i have to sleep. bye.

2006-02-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

dad's fucking biased lah! >): my brother provoked me and i scold him. and my dad says that im so rude t my brother. he's a fucking bastard lah. dad always dote on him. he just heck care me and my 2 elder sister. my brother asked for a computer, dad say agreed IMMEDIATELY! i was like BEG him for months just t buy a stupid mp3. and he said NO MEANS NO. i was fucking pissed. even mum says he's biased and dotes brother more. i really hate him when i was lil. till now, i still hate him for what he've done >)): since he doesnt want t buy for me, FINE. i'l get it myself by saving money! (:

let's talk about today (: english lesson was fucking bored. mdm choo's such an ass. we need t create questions for the newspaper article assignment. i din do lah, only the others discuss lohs. after english lesson, its PE ): had t run 2.4km. i run till half way then got gastric pain and stomache. i couldnt run anymore. mr khoo says that i'l continue the next lesson (: blah blah blah.

then after school, i dont wanna go cca. i stay at the canteen t do my english hmk -.- i hate t do it lah. i give up half way, and went t cca. mdm ang's a BITCH. she said i wasnt in the team for the building of bridge competition. i ended up staying there helping them. its just a waste of my time lah. so tmr i dont have t go lohs. i dont wanna have lessons! my bag will be damn heavy tmr ): hais. my competition's on friday. it would be better if its thursday cause i dont have t carry so much books on friday ): fucking mdm ang, make me work for nothing!

well, after cca went t eat with dawn, jooyee, jx and liwen! its fun lah :D liwen's always provoking dawn. we chatted alot of funnaye stuffs. laugh our ass off (: i sit the same bus as liwen and dawn. we crapped in the bus. i wanna send liwen back home, by kicking her ass and let her fly back. oh well, i din do that cause im too KIND (: haha.

that's all for today (: bye.

2006-01-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO! IM BACK! (: im too lazy t blog. haha. chinese new year was kinda okay. well, i dont really like it cause it disturbs my sleeping time. ): i have t wake up early and go t my grandma's house. i thought that i could sleep like a pig but i was wrong ): actually, there's nothing much t blog about chinese new year. its like so boring ):

hais ): nobody's free t go out with me tmr! ): they're like so busy with their stuffs. im so lonely ): i havent done my homework lah. prepare to die, sherline. i din even receive my newspaper, how am i suppose t do my homework?! i just hate t do homework >):

that's all, im t lazy t go on. bye (:

2006-01-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

i've been so busy that i couldn't blog. oh well, i also dont have the mood t blog. im so dissapointed with myself. i've got only 9/15 for Amaths test! i was like fucking pissed off with myself. if i din make so much careless mistake i would score full marks! most of my classmates scored full marks okay. i almost cry in class cause i was so shocked that i got so low for my test. Emaths test: 26/30. i wasn't satisfied with the result too. i could have done better! im like so careless for the past few days. i couldn't concentrate! ):

i feel so cheated cause someone lied t me ): but i've forgiven him (: we're still best friends! (: when he told me that he lied t me about something i was like damn pissed? i'm having depression lah, cannot blame me sia. but after awhile i'm not angry aldy. i also dont know the reason sia. hais ): someone lied t me again but this time its not him lah. its a WOMAN ): agrrr. i trust her so much and she even promised me not t tell anyone about it. but guess what? she told my other friend about something i told her! how could she do this to me? she told me that she was a secret-keeper. all this are just fucking bullshits. ponki wont be like her. ponki's damn nice cause she's a good secret-keeper (: i just love t tell her all the things in my heart (: ILOVEHER okay! (:

hais ): i've no appetite t eat during recess. maybe its due t stress in school work? but after school i can eat damn lot. im getting worst lah. everyday eat, sleep, talk cock. fuck fuck fuck. i hate this life! im hungry now -.- just all of a sudden. scary right? ):

anyway, im having fun at cca today (: took photos with jx and sandy. LOL :D i accompany sandy t stay back for the bloody cca thingy. oh well, i can go home early but i dont want :x cca teachers not there! haha (: i hate t see them lah. they give me bloody attitude and piss me off. fucking teachers.

okay. i'll blog till here. too tired ):

2006-01-21T18:46:00.000+08:00

im so depressed and stressed ): there's a lot of homework waiting for me t complete. my maths teacher is insane, she said there's not enough practise for maths. so she gave us 72 sums t be completed by next week. i still have other homeworks t do not only maths. almost everyday, i sleep at around 2? cause of all the homeworks that my teachers gave. this is damn fucking. fucking school have fucking teachers and they gave fucking homework. fuck fuck fuck.

sec three and four's life is fucking depressing. it isnt fair, the sec one and two's aint as busy as us. they're just so relaxed and free. why must we be suffering? while they're enjoying fun? i can't even go for shopping spree. fucking fucked up. after school, there's still cca till 4 or 5 plus.

friday was so worst for me. i have Emaths test at the last period. i finished my test fast just t do my Amaths' correct if not i'l have t stay back t do. hello, friday is our school's cca. and i can't be late. im so fucked up. she's damn unfair t my class. she said, if we never write our name, the homework title or date she's gonna minus our marks. damn it. how could she treat my class like this?

after my bloody test, went for cca straight away. damn madam ang made us suffer. she send us for some stupid contest. she's fucking evil, she show the photos that was taken last year. she knows that i hate it and yet she still show it t the whole cca members. FUCK HER BLOODY ASS. she's one FUCKING BITCH!

after cca, went t eat with sandy at Hans' and wait for sinhui too. her cca ends later than mine ): yeah, so i ate very slowly while waiting for her. and when she reaches, i still haven finished eating. i was damn slow at eating cause im too gentle! LOL :D sinhui knows that i'm having depression. when im feeling depressed, i'l go psychotic doing crazy stuffs. awwww ): she understands how im feeling right at that minute.

after eating, i went t photocopy some band notes with her. and we went home together (: when i reached home, mum went t work again. and i din know she wasn't at home (: i came online and chatted with sinhui! she comforted me (: im so touched! and something bad happened ): shant mention it ): anyway, i must thank sinhui for doing some "counselling" with me (:

that's all for today (:

2006-01-19T21:51:00.000+08:00

fucking day. i was caught sleeping in class. awww ): im just too tired. how i wish that im sick and i dont have t attend school. i wanna sleep all day long in my air-con room (: brother was right about saying that i've the characteristic of a pig. and i shouldnt be born in the year of goat, he should be the one as he doesnt look like a pig.

gary's sick today so he went home early. i was wondering why he went home so early. aint i stupid? i chatted alot with him in msn (: he said im the greatest friend in the whole wide world! yeah! :D im damn happy! best friends forever! (:

i wont be blogging for sometime. im down with alot of homework. its freaking me off. because of that, im losing my sleeping time! ): rahhhhhh! okay. that's all.

takecare! mr pokkkkkkkkk. i wont call you meanypokkkkkk anymore (:

2006-01-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

gary's got his replacement card so now he could sms and call his friends (: good for him (: (: but i dont think im gonna sms him anymore. im afraid that i might caused his phone t be in low-battery, he might drop his phone and lost it just like that. so i only sms my phone number. that's all.

lessons was so bored. i almost fell asleep during social studies. mdm choo's lesson was damn boring. she's so crappy -.-" i kinda hate her but when she talks about church stuffs i seem t feel abit interested in listening t what she have t say. i would love t go t church but mum just dont allow me t do so ): i wanna be a christian and worship god. i love god! yes, i really do ((((((:

oh well, i've got t stop here. im doing my english hmk. once i finished it, i can go t sleep aldy! i miss being a piggy :D

boy, i miss you.

2006-01-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

if i ever saw the most beautiful & perfect thing or human
i would die with ~~no regrets in my life~~
it would be the best thing that i've last seen in my life

2006-01-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

i feeling so sleepy today. i slept around 2am yesterday. for the first few lessons i was tired. but after recess, i dont feel so sleepy (: during recess, i went to find gary for the tie. i told sinhui that gary wanna knows how she looked like. so i drag her along, cause she dont wanna let gary know how she looked like. we make alot of noise in the canteen. its so gay lah ): i thought gary's angry with me for being such a fucker. but he wasn't (: there's one asshole that i hate say about my friend(prefect). he said that he's gonna tell mr wong about them letting me go when i haven't finish drinking my leamon tea. he's such an ass. ah, i dont wanna talk about him lah.

after school, i need to find sandy so i was late in returning the tie to gary. he had geography test in the afternoon. im really very sorry about it ): and he lost his phone, he's damn upset over it. if you happened to pass by do read what i've to say at the bottom.

though youve lost your phone, dont be sad. somehow, you'll get a new one in no time. cheer up okay? i dont wish to see you being so sad. i wanna see you smile again, be the funnaye guy i know (: i'll always be there for you no matter what happens. just contact me okay. i'l pick up the phone no matter how busy i am. really, i mean it. vent out all your anger, dont hide it inside. its not good okay. takecare always (:

i feeling so sad today. same as gary but his situation was even worst than me so i should comfort him instead of thinking about my own problem. i quarrelled with mum, she was being so unreasonable. maybe i dont hate the world. instead, im hate myself for causing so much problems in this world. everything i do, i just bring trouble to everyone. sometimes, i wonder why do i live in this world for? to bring trouble? or just to be sad or whatever. i shouldn't be born in this world after all ): if i was able to choose, i won't want to be born in this world to bring so much trouble to others.

dont try to cheer me up. cause i wont be ever happy again no matter what. i feel so stressed and depressed. i couldn't take all those school & personal stress. i really can't take it anymore. the truth is, i was a loner. i was born in this world to be lonely though i seem to have lots of friends. but i realised i was the one drifting further away from them. i could no longer feel that kind of friendship happiness i've. maybe because i've changed? or is it that we no longer holds sucha strong friendship? i dont know the answer. friends have left me when i needed them the most. nobody was there when i needed them. i could feel that everyone hates me. i wasn't kidding. i dont wish to offend people by the things that i've done. im afraid that the whole world would leave me all alone. not even one friend left to console me.

am i just being sensitive? or is this the fact? both sec three & two's life isn't great for me. i feel so tensed up, i couldn't relax for one minute. im becoming even more worst than before. i hate myself, the life i've created, the things i've done. i cried in the bathroom while i was bathing. i couldn't hold on to the tears anymore.

all the depressions and stress have caused me to think of ending my life just like that. but now, i know that there's someone who wont leave me out when im all alone (: that's gary! he's kinda nice, he did some "counselling" sessions with me (: i really thank him alot for all the things.

depression isn't a fashion. its just an illness that some people cant get over it. the only medicine is your friend, someone who will pick you up and comfort you when the whole world's given up on you (: your true friend. i know mine, what about you? (:

i've got to do my hmk now. my "panda" eyes are getting worst. mum's complaining about it (: bye.

2006-01-14T01:23:00.000+08:00

nobody understands me or should i say ~~they didnt try to understand me~~? im really tired of my life. sometimes, when i feel lonely nobody was there for me. i was all alone, trying to get out from this nightmare of mine. but, nobody came to rescue me. i was being abandon by all of them. things always doesn't goes the way i want it to be.

i feel so depressed. and i almost cried in the class, i tried not to think of other stuffs and concentrate on lessons. still, i can't ): im a failure. and one of my friend said that i've changed. i wasn't the crazy sherline that she used to know. so, i was like really? maybe its because of being so stressed that changes me. i kinda like who i am now.

im feeling so sad for the whole day. i felt so unloved, and i wished to be loved. now, i have no crush-es. and its kinda carefree but its sad too. cause there's nobody to love you ): im talking rubbish lah. i, myself dont even understand what im saying. lol :D

that's all for today (: bye.

2006-01-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

i hate this world.
nobody understands how i feel.
they misunderstood me all along.

for the whole day, i was in a terrible mood. im so sorry if i ever showed you guys attitude ): mrs low changed the sitting arrangement. those who were good in maths are shifted to the back. the weak ones are infront. im not happy about sitting behind cause i couldn't see a single thing when i din wear my contact lens. if extremely terrible to me ): so from now on, i got to wear contacts every single day. my eyes are damn tired lah >):

i din have a nice nap since school starts. im feeling so fucking pissed off whenever i dont have enough sleep. that's one of the reason why im feeling so down today. another reason is because of my wallet ): i can't use my cards anymore. i got to re-new my ez-link card ): plus, school's homework is making me feel more stress up. im stress! ): nobody was there for me, i was left alone to endure the sufferings. mrs low is being too unreasonable, she gave us maths homework for almost every maths lesson. and hello, im taking two maths not one okay. Amaths and Emaths questions can be like 10plus or 20plus questions altogether? some questions was so tough that i do until i wanna die. my brain can't take it >): and she still say, "got so many questions meh?" of course lah, also not she do those homework she can easily say that. i dont understand why sec three's life is so stress up. i really couldn't take it anymore. i think i might not be able to make it this year ):

hais ): after school, i went to look for mdm ang and do the bloody thing that she gave me and went off for lunch at 320? i ate spaghetti (correct?) and toast! yummy yumyum :D i was damn hungry (: i din know mum cooked lunch so i ate at Han's. sandy was nice enough to accompany me to eat lunch. while i was eating, there's three fucking asshole sec ones passed by. they knock on the glass wall just right behind me. they're trying to piss me off. they wont like it when i got angry ): back to the point. i just heck care them lah and carry on with my eating. the second time i looked outside the glass wall and i saw ms sham, salleh and a bunch of sec fours walking together to bukit merah's food court or whatever. i dont know.

i went home at ard 5plus. im having tuition at night so got to go home early. mum went to work in the evening so left with me, dad and grandpa. its so peaceful cause there's nobody to nag at me at home (: haha.

i dont feel like going to tuition cause i was very tired. i fell asleep on the sofa. so i called mr ewan at the last minute and asked him if i could changed it to friday. then he said i was irresponsible, blah blah blah. i admit i am but im really very tired. i can't hang on anymore ): i need to sleep! but no choice, went for my tuition if not mum's gonna scold me when she gets home. it was so cold over there and i've forgotton to bring along my jacket. but anyway, i wasn't that cold till i need a jacket. after tuition, came online ): couldn't resist.

i'll blog till here. i need to complete my maths homework ): bye.

2006-01-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

hello! im back (: i was kinda busy when school reopens so i din have the time to blog plus im lazy too. thanks huihui, sarah and kristine for tagging me! and the others too (: im tired of going to school. sec three's life is depressing. i really hate it, unlike in sec one and two. i get to enjoy sometimes. but now, im feeling stress. im afraid that i cant do well for my studies. i think of this everyday.

this few days, there's nobody i can consult to. they left me all alone. and as for cs, we've lost contact ever since i was busy during the holidays. i really need someone to lend me an ear. but who could do that? everyone's got they're own problems too. i can't be so selfish and bother them. i dont wanna do that, cause i know it wont be nice. i feel so lonely, im walking alone all by myself. i couldn't even find a friend to walk with me down this road. i'll break down soon ): im sure of it. without my friends, i wont be feeling happy.

TODAY ;

i woke up late and i took taxi to school. i drop my wallet without even knowing it. and the bloody taxi just drove over my wallet. that's my christmas present from mum! im damn sad for the whole day because of this matter. not only that, all my cards are spoilt including my ez-link card. i need to get a new one ): so this few days i think i would be using coins to take bus. its very troublesum lah. im fucking sway lohs. and i wanna scold fucking so badly. im fucking fucking pissed. i was supposed to meet jialin but in the end i din cause of my wallet. i couldn't concentrate during lessons today. i feel so sad and lonely. ml din come to school today. nobody's accompanying me during english lesson. there's show and tell today, i did real badly. fucking shit. i should have done the script long time ago when i've time. im so fucked up. fuck fuck fuck.

after school, i couldn't even find one person to have lunch with me lah. jialin went off to somewhere else and sandy went home. she said she doesn't wanna come out anymore cause its gonna rain ):< so i bought my lunch and went home.

i told mum what had happened to my wallet. she blamed me for being so blur. as usual, i was scolded by her. damn fucking! i, myself also din wish for this kinda fucking thing to happen. how i wish i never cabbed to school in the first place.

that's all for today. its late and i haven done my homework. i'll blog some other time ):

2005-12-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

its just another lonely christmas. awwww. i wanna go t orchard and see the christmas lightings. i wanna see those 'snow flakes'. agrrr ): mum's so mean, i wanna go out! though im feelg abit okay, but still i cant go out. hais ): never mind, jx's gonna go tanning with me for sure. YES! she gave me a confirmed answer when i asked her just now. i was a mean girl, actually, i was kinda angry. i was so sick and plus im troubled with all this things. cause i was planning for the snowcity thing. i feel kinda frustrated, yeah, so sorry ): i din mean t be like this. but well, now im quite okay. oh and im not sad anymore (: im not bothered by things about him anymore. my life is great lah :D

i love t play with my cousin. we went t the park in the evening. played the swing and i-dont-know-what-thing. anyway, its fun (: and she treat me drinks! LOL :DD i bought teenage! cause there's jay's poster. yeah, i was super happy lah.

okay, im gonna end here. im tired, i have t wake up early tmr (:
iloveprincessdiaries

2005-12-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

im lazy t blog and im sick. mum doesnt allow me t go tanning today. she said im sick so im not allowed. plus, my cousins are coming and i was told t play with them -.- im pathetic okay. another lonely christmas for me. what a bad day. i hope winnie's not angry with me ):

im feelg so sad all of a sudden. i feel so lonely, and after readg my comics i become even more emotional then before. pathetic pathetic pathetic ): fuckg life.

okay i shall stop here. my cousin's here (: she's readg my 'pervert' comic books! LOL :DD

2005-12-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

i haven been updating for days. too lazy to update and i was sick lah ): i've got serious cough and flu. RAHRAHRAHRAHRAH! )): there's finally work tmr! :DD i think i'll be able t make it though im sick (: i need t collect my pay! LOL. anyway, im not in the mood t blog. im damn tired. if jx's free on this sunday, we're gonna go tanning for sure. cause she promised me! if only she's allowed t go out on sunday. and we might be going t snowcity on wednesday. it depends, not everyone's free on that day and i haven asked them.

that's all for today. and thanks huihui, kristine, sarah! for the tags! i think i wont be blogging or even go online these days cause i dont feel like it x

2005-12-18T22:06:00.000+08:00

im stuck at home all day. doing my bloody hmk which makes me go crazy. hais ): im having a bad sore throat. damn it lah, i cant drink properly lohs. i feel so awful ): i was half way through my maths hmk. i really hope that i can finish it in time. no more last minute work for me (: i dont wanna burn midnight oil.

after dinner, my family and i went t the funfair near the ntuc there. and i saw serene! damn surprised that she came t this event with her family. LOL :DD and i sit right behind her lah. damn funnaye! her phone's spoilt so cant sms me lohs. then i dont know it in the first place. so i was like angry? when she show me the message in the phone(she typed it out) then i know lohs. we chatted by using her phone t type the messages. my fingers are aching lah, her phone damn hard t use. my mum says her hairstyle looks like the eygpt queen. her mum says that my mum looks young. i was laughing like a crazy woman! serene laughed at me for being so hilarious. i was sitting down there, pretending t sing like those people on the stage. i was trying t find something t do okay.

i wanna explain something here. if what ive said in the quiz, causes some misunderstanding. do forgive me. i know im too thickskinned lah. rahrahrah >:( i shouldnt have wrote all those rubbish. SORRY ): nothing's gonna change, no matter what ive said. its just my wishful thinking.

cause weve lost it all
nothing last forever
im sorry i cant be perfect
i shouldnt have said all the things
thats hidden in my heart
you broke my heart once again
i was never good enough for you.

2005-12-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

i was told by huihui dearie t do this quiz (:

In no particular order, list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.

1. jialin
2. jiaxin
3. angeline
4. shuling
5. seejia
6. sandy
7. yihjiun
8. ms evelyn wu
9. mdm eileen ang
10. karen
11. dawn
12. sinhui
13. eugene tai
14. jiaxin
15. jialin

So, what do you think of number 4?

she's my ah zhor (: she's kind, nice, helpful, smart girl. we've been friends since primary school (: next year, we're in the same class. we get t chat alot more than this year ((:

How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on the face?

i would think that's she's just joking with me (: she's just playing with me ((:

How is number 6?

sandy's a quiet girl. she dont usually talk. she hangs out with me, sinhui and jialin during recess. she's a hardworking girl. (:

On the scale one to ten, how good looking number 5 is?

seejia ah, i would give him 6/10 bah. he's kinda cute and chubby. he's not too bad lah. for his type is cute not handsome. LOL :DD

Will i ever fall for number 11?

NONONO. cause she's a girl and i aint a lesbian. though i do sound like one (thts what brother says). she's friendly, nice, smart and helpful. she's definitely a friend towards me ((:

Honestly, if number 8 met an accident, what would i do?

i would cry like hella. cause she's the best science teacher in hss. she's a good teacher unlike the others. she treats her students well and helped them alot in their studies. for eg. my class's the worst class among the sec two's level. and yet she's still bear with my class's bloody attitude. she would reward us when we get good grades (: i love her. she helped me t improve my science alot. i did better than last year's result (:

What sport would i play with number 12?

i would play badminton with her. so that i could grow taller (: i would love t challenge her as she's damn tall. it would be challenging for me t play against her (:

What if number 1 got a boyfriend?

oh, i would be damn surprised. i know she wont abandon me because of her relationship. cause we've been friends for like 9 years already? i would be curious t see what kinda guys she've choosen (: i wanna di siao that guy! LOL. im evil :DD (i dont know if she'l tell me she's got a boyfriend anot, if she happens t have one)

Do i hate number 9?

YES! i hate her hell lot. the whole class hated her from the beginning of the year lohs! she's damn bloody mean, she threatens people alot (from my class). she confiscates the books that we put under the tables. she would ask students t tuck in shirt when they've already tucked in. and she expects us, the students t be NERDS. she accused me of not tucking in my shirt when i've already tucked in. rahrahrah >:( she's one fucking bitch. everyone hates her!

How much do i like number 2?

i love her alot! she's my eldest daughter and bestie! she's the one who will always comfort me when im down, sad or depressed. we shared the same feelings. she's the best thing i've got from god (: she's my everything. whenever im alone, she'll be there for me (: she never fails t pull me out from the sadness within me. i love her t bits!

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?

NONONONO): cause i love him lah. and yihjiun definitely wont like him cause she's got her lover already. he belongs t me (: though we cant be together, my love for him will never fade away. i promised. he's the one and only eugene tai that sherline cher's gonna love for her lifetime (: he's my dearest cuteboy (: iloveyou >:))

Would 14 one day kill me?

NONONONO. i know she wont cause she loves me! and we're the bestest friends. we wont hurt each other no matter what happens in this world. we would go through thick and thin together. she's a pure and innocent girl so i bet she wont (:

Who do i like more? 3 or 10?

i would choose angeline. she's one funnaye and funky senior of mine. she's kind and nice too. i love t tag her blog (: she's got her own style and attitude that i love the most. most of all, she's a netballer! i adore netballers and sportsman/women. they're cool okay! but im not saying that karen's not nice but its just that i love angeline more :DD

Get 5 people t do this thing!

angeline, shuling, vanessa, winnie, cheryl chew!

yes, finally im done with this quiz! yahooooooooo ((:

2005-12-17T18:37:00.000+08:00

hais ): i dont think there's gonna be tanning tmr. everybody's busy out of a sudden ): im so disappointed. i wanna go tanning so badly )): hais ): i dont know when will i get t tann myself. so i think tmr's cancel. i cant compare my skin colour with huihui ): i've decided already! im going t sun tanning on tuesday no matter what! definitely must be next week! YES! oh, im going out t eat dinner. i'l do the quiz that huihui asked me t (:

2005-12-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

ohohoh, i've forgotton t talk about seejia. he's injured, he fractured his arm. okay, seejia! if you happened t see this. takecare hoh! and becareful lah (: if i have time, i'll meet up with you okay. im not sure cause im like busy? sorry, buddy. dont play computer lah. injured still play. LOL :DD

2005-12-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

new layout. im quite satisfied with this piece of art.

hais ): no work today. damn that florence, she delayed the pay for like one month? if she aint gonna give me the next week, im gonna sue her! i mean it okay, im not joking. if she delays, i'll have no money t buy presents. ponki and me are worried okay. cause of our mums. they kept saying that we're being conned. but i dont think so! i believe that we'll get our pay somehow. i miss ponki lah ): when will she come t my house t drink vodka with me? i hope soon ):

anyway, brother came today. and duh, he bullied me like hella. he's mean lah, threatening me with all the things that i told him ): and he rejected my testimonial RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES! i was just joking in the testimonial lah. and he said dont know what shit lah, spoil his reputation or what. shittaye ass can. ah, never mind. the worst thing is, he & my other three family members 'shoot' me together. about my stupid pay during dinner. and he also scare me can. cause i thought he's gonna give me the pig's liver t eat so i shouted. he said its only the pork not the liver. i was like gong-gong lah. cause i dont like t eat pig's liver lah ): he's the same as me. oh and i asked him about my hairstyle, he said its nice! YAY! finally, he said something good(:

after dinner, i asked him if i can go clubbing at night. he said cannot, must go in during the day. cause at night, they dont allow(i think). hais ): damn boring )): he left at ard 7plus gng t 8. he's gng back t his home t watch tv. he's not living with us. he's living with my eldest & second sister & my niece at sengkang? (sry if i spell wrongly)

and now, im here blogging lah. im gng off soon cause i wanna watch my anime :D

2005-12-16T00:31:00.000+08:00

i din intend t blog. ah well, im lazy.

im happy lah. cause mum bought me a new zinc bag (: that's the newest design, its damn nice! (: i love it man! haha :DDD life's so boring. nothing t blog lah. i meeting ponki for work tmr! YAY! finally, i get t see her. i miss her so much! i'm gna drag her t a salon t get her haircut if she haven cut her hair yet. HAHAHAHA :DD im evil, yes i know -.-

that's all. shall blog tmr. (: andandand, I LOVE HUIHUI! (hey, hui ah! see that? in caps lehs! LOL)

2005-12-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

went for a haircut today(: my hair's damn short now. dad's mean lah, he kept laughing at my hairstyle cause i said "AM I HANDSOME?" LOL :DDD i do look like a boy now. mum said its nice ((: mum's the best lah, at least she wont laugh at my new haircut when she saw me. grandpa's mean too -.- he said my hair's like the cat's tail being chopped off. it aint that ugly lah ): i love my new haircut lah! (:

im gng sun tanning with jx and ponki on sunday! YAY! and after that, we're gng t buy christmas presents! haha :DD i cant wait till sunday comes! hais :x there's tution tmr lah, 10am. i know i wont be waking up sooooo early t attend that bloody lesson. cause im gna watch tv till the next morning. and now, i cant blog anymore. im gna watch my tv now. goodbye (:

all i want for christmas is you ):

2005-12-12T18:46:00.000+08:00

sunday;

went out with my family t bugis. i din manage t buy my adidas bag. its out of stock lah ): but i did bought the clothes that i wanted & the wallet too (: went home ard 9plus cause mum's feeling unwell. we took taxi home :D at the taxi stand, i saw this lady carrying a teddy-bear-shaped-bag. it looks kinda nice. so i decided t buy that bag for jx as christmas present (: and she's buying me that too! we might go out on sunday t buy it. i might go sun tanning first ((: wheeees.

monday;

im rotting at home today. as usual, im having tution at night ): i dont feel like gng lah ): im in a foul mood. for all my life, he's the true one whom i've fall for so deeply. i din realised that i would feel so hurt. i thought i could take this pain & look on the brightside of life. the fact is i couldnt. im a failure. i knew that he & i are impossible. and i still confess t him that ilovehim. this is so pathetic -.- im trying t hold back my tears. hais )): that's all. im not in the mood t blog )):

2005-12-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 830 today -.- thanks t my stupid dad. he kept snoaring all night, making me feel so disturbed. i couldnt sleep till the next morning. and he made alot of noise in the morning, i woke up again! this is so bloody, i feel so pissed off. im trying t sleep and he keeps on making so much noise! wtf ):< when he went t work, i tried t get some sleep. but i couldnt ): i feel so awful lah. im having gastric pain early in the morning.

i went off t meet sinhui at about 1plus. i take my own sweet time t walk there. cause i know she wont reach tbp's mac so soon. she's got band in the morning. while waiting for her, i saw mr tze and the other basketballers. so i hide at the breadtalk's there. and agrrr, i lost my slipper keychain there and i din realised it. im oh-so pathetic lah )): that's my precious thing, i've been putting that on my sling bag for two years! and now, its gone! t me its some kinda lucky charm (: -sigh.

sinhui's hungry so we went t tbp's food court t eat. i watched her eat her lunch. LOL :DDD i dont wanna have my lunch today. and duh, we saw mr tze they all. im so unlucky without my lucky charm with me )): and that justine(junior) suddenly came and talk t sinhui about *****'s stuff. its a top secret! he's one lamo, kept asking sinhui questions -.- sinhui says if i told her that justine was there, she would have gone t bugis t have lunch! LOL.

after that, went t bugis t buy my keychain (: the torto and mokozi! its cute lah. its a pity that i din take a photo of it. each costs me about 3bucks. i bought two (: then went t take neos. after that went t look for the condom chocolate cause i wanted t show sinhui. but its sold out! damn fast. next, went t the adidas shop t look if my bag's still there. and phew, its still there (: im gna get it tmr night, just you wait (:

we went back t tbp as i want t buy the chocolate for eugene. i wanna apologised for not giving him a birthday present. on the way t tbp, me and sinhui chat alot. just like the time, i chat with jx, all the way t tbp. i called him at ard 4plus. asked him t meet me at my house's downstairs at 530. i reached home ard 5plus. i was waiting for him. he reached at about 540 or so. then pass him the thing lohs. then some unhappy things happened. i dont wanna tell the world. i wanna keep this t myself. anyway, eugene and me are best friends forever! i'll always love my cute boy. as a friend [:

that's all for today. byebye!

why do you still hold on t me,
when you said you love me no more?
this is the last time,
i'l cry for you and say
i love you, dear.

2005-12-10T00:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FION!

today's another boring day for me. i slack at home the whole day. damn bored and im gna rot soon.

mum went t work in the evening (: im free lah. so at night, i meet up with sinhui t buy my book covers. then went t sweet talk, drank honey red tea :DD yummy yummy! then sat down outside breadtalk. chat alot with her. then we went t 711 t buy breezers but the person say cannot. must above 17 and have ic then can buy -.- fuck it. i wanted t drink that okay. then we went back t breadtalk there and chat. i told her alot of things (: feels kinda great! went home at 1005 or so.

on the way home, serene sms-ed me asking me how i do those gif images in my friendster profile. haha :DD i've just learnt how t do animations today! thanks t VINTAGE-MELODY.ORG for the tutorials. when i reached home, grandpa scolded me for coming home so late. but i dont think its late okay. some youngsters went out at this time. i was so envy of them. their parents let them go out till the next day! aint it fun and great? t some of you, you might think that it aint. but since, i've never go out till so late. i decided t try it out. i wanna go clubbg lah. im asking my brother t bring me along when he goes. i'll definitely ask sinhui (: afterall, she's my husband!

i really hope that i can go out late with my friends. just t enjoy myself for this holidays. when schools starts, i think im gonna feel stressful. things might not goes the way i want it t be. so now, i really must enjoy myself t the fullest. i wanna be with my friends. they're the bestest things that i've got ever since i was born (: thanks t god. without them, i dont know what'll i become.

anyway, i've thought of a new layout but i dont wanna change the jay's layout ): jay's my love! i'll think about that ): oh and sinhui's coming t my house ~~tmr~~ today! (usually, i blogged very late, that's why) im damn happy can. i can have fun! no more boring days!

HAHAHAHAHA :DDD i drank breezers' cranberry beer just now. i feel so hot, as in my whole body's kinda warm -.- not that kinda hot. mum said my whole face turned red. i dont think so, after awhile, it turned more red & warm (:< kinda cool, uh. i wanna drink vodka. i was hoping that i could ask grandpa help me buy some. and damn mummy doesnt allow me t do so. she said when she's free, she'll buy it for me ):< RAHHHH ))):< she's damn bloody can. spoil my mood lah :x

i've got t go now. she's nagging at me. oh this shittaye life i've. but its much better with my friends (: i love them. my sweethearts who will never fails t cheer me up :DD

tag replies time (:

kristine > yeah! JAY ROCKS LIKE HEAVEN! haha :DDD i miss you lots! do takecare okay? and i would like t meet you up sometime okay? see if i got time anot :x school's gonna start real soon.

huihui > haha! yeah! jay rocks our world right? neh, im not jealous. there's alot of fans who loves him too. he's my baobei dada wors. LOL. but i love you too! xDDD takecare!

adios!

2005-12-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

today's tution was damn nice (: there's gummies for me t eat! ms loh bought it for me t eat in order t make me stay awake in class. aint she nice (: having lesson half way, then he called me. so i said i'll call him later. and blah blah blah. after class, went t popular t buy book covers and i've forgotton t buy dont-know-how-many-covers again. im damn blur can.

he called me while i was on the way home. he said he's at my house's downstairs now. he just want t chat with me that's all -.- and he's with a girl while waiting for me. ah, who cares! (: i just talk t him for a few minutes then go home lohs. what do you expect me t do? oh and i asked him about the tuesday incident. and duh, it wasnt him lah. its his friend who made that prank. he's one lame asshole ):<

when i reach home, only got grandpa and dad. mum went t work. haha :DDD im free! i called my boss, asking her if there's work for this week. she said no, and i was damn furious can! cause she's been delaying my pay. mum once said that i was being conned by that auntie. and my answer was NONONO. i dont think she's conning me and ponki. back t the point, she said this week's spring cleaning of her office. so no job for me, ponki and the others. this is one pathetic thing. im really very looking forward t get my pay. why must that auntie spoil my mood?! RAHRAHRAHRAH! ):<

im damn bored lah. i think im gna stay at home on friday & saturday. cause there's nobody gng out with me. damn it man. jx couldnt go out, ponki's away for camp. and i dont wanna go out with others unless its the two of them. if its a group outing, i wont mind. but if its two people gng out, i'll ask either the both of them (: i know im just so mean lah. but i really enjoy gng out with them lah.

mummy says that we'll be gng out on sunday (maybe) t buy my adidas bag! and have dinner at bugis. ah, dont know if its a sure anot. cause she's always so busy with her work. aiya, she wanna earn more money for me t spend lah :DDD oh, and today she called singtel, asking them if my prolink's contract over. then they said in the month march, its aldy over. and mummy was furious that they din send us a letter t tell us. so mummy said, 'i wanna cut off the line!' awww. i wont be able t use my computer for some time )): unless i subscribe t a new one. mummy wanna subscribe t starhub's one. cause there's promotion for it. and what's more, dad's using the starhub's phone line, we've got scv. and the cable is damn huge can. so if i surf the net, it would be more faster and it would be cheaper.

i chatted with jiamin online just now. she said she wants me t be her jiejie. but she's older than me sia. anyway, never mind lah. okay, now she's offically my meimei (:

hais :x my nails are fuckg long. its hard t type lah ): gna cut my nails real soon. just you wait (: that's all.

tag replies time (:

sarah > i've changed the font colour aldy, hope that its easier t read now (: thanks for readg my blog. ily (:

charm > relinked! :DD takecare. youre welcome! haha :DDD

adios!

2005-12-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SERENE!

new layout (: i think the colour combination is fugly. anyway, the picture's nice cause there's jay in it!

i went out with jx t search for my adidas bag. we went t bugis t look for it. we chatted all the way t bugis in the bus (: its been a long time since we chatted for such a long time. anyway, back t the point. when we reached bugis, we walked ard first. went in the wallet shop. myuk got new stuffs (: those wallets are so cool and nice. but still i think jiamin's billabong wallet is the nicest of all. i was looking for that wallet too. and yeah, couldnt find it. damn it.

then we went t the edge. i saw newbie's newest designed tshirt! and the skirt too! i was tempted t buy but i din have enough money with me ): oh and i saw samuel & kelvin's knee length pants! its damn nice okay! ohohoh, and the mickey's tshirt were so cute & nice. its new arrival! :DD im gna drag mummy t go shopping with me next time! so, we walked ard then went t take neos.

after that, went t the adidas shop. jx saw the bag and i was like 'OHMYGOD! FINALLY, I FOUND YOU! MY DEAREST BAG!' haha :DD im abit exaggerated. im gna buy the black one! and look ard for my slippers too. but cant find the one that i wanted )): oh never mind, i'll definitely find it someday. hmm. i din bought the bag. cause i was only searching for it, i din expect t find it so soon. then we went out of the shop lohs.

me and jx pass by a chocolate shop (: yummy yummy. the chocolates looks so delicious but its damn expensive can. there's this one cool condom chocolate that attracts me. guess how much it cost? it cost 7.9bucks just for one small box of chocolates. its imported from europe and japan. in the end, i bought one chocolate stick which cost me 1buck.

after that, jx have t go aldy. cause she got sth on. she accompany me t yoshi t buy my lunch. then we went t take train together. then i reach home aldy. that's all lah. i cant wait t get my bag and clothes :DDDD and there's sth wrong with the wishlist part -.- i dont know what's wrong with it. just heck care it okay?

tag replies (:

angeline > hello. im very bored too. rotting at home ): nothing t do sia.

shuting > haha :D youre welcome (: hope you'll like my design (: do blog often okay?

adios!

2005-12-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

finally im done with my stupid project. so now i could blog. agrrr ): im left with the powerpoint part which is half completed cause winnie doesnt know how t do. and im not gonna hand it up tmr. NONONO ): bloody work. my brain's cracking with all this work. im stress and depressed.

i used jx's computer this afternoon. and he came t chat with me. he said he likes me. i definitely dont believe him cause he wont type in proper english. im kinda sure that the person whose typing it aint him. cause his friend bluff me for like dont-know-how-many-times. and duh, i din believe him. i hope that we could be friends. i think it will be a permanet one. i know im selfish. but i think its a good thing for me. its time for me t concentrate on my studies. this year will be a tough one for me. i've been thinking about it for days. which makes me feel so stress about my studies. and i dont like the feeling of stress. im wondering if i will be able t handle my subjects for next year. i dont think i will do well in maths science & geography. im afraid that i will not do well for it.

as for why im feeling depressed. the reason is him lah. there's one night that i couldnt sleep, i was thinking things about him. i've finally decided t go out with him as a friend, not some crush or so. and yeah, thats all.

i cant wait for friday t come. hais ): ponki's having camp so she couldnt work with me this week. awww. im alone, all by myself )): if that bloody auntie dont give me and ponki, our pay i'll make her suffer hell from me! she's been delaying our pay for like weeks! im broke now and i need money!

im gna sleep now. im gng out tmr t search for my dear adidas bag. (:
adios people!

2005-12-06T15:29:00.000+08:00

hello! im at jx's house now! she helped me with the history assignment (: she's damn kind lah. i really must thank her a million times (: i love t play with her label-it-machine. its some kinda funnaye machines which you make print out your name. aiya, i dont know what's the name -.- i need t end here. shall update when i get home (:

2005-12-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep all night and i was being wake up by mum at 930. she pulled me t the supermarket! ): i din even eat my breakfast cause mum din buy anything for me. i was planning t wake up at 10 & buy my delicious hot cake from mac. and now, its gone )): i want my hot cake! rahhhhh ):< i dont have the strength t push the trolly cause i din have my breakfast!

after the supermarket walk, we went t tbp t have lunch. i tried the handmade noodles, it taste kinda sweet.? i dont like it lah ): after lunch, went t pierce my ears! i've got 3 earholes on both of my ears (: its kinda pain but i din cry. mummy said she cried when she pierced her second earhole. HAHAHAHAHAHA :D mummy's so weak lah. oh, im damn sway lah. i saw that bloody shaun outside the shop. he's one stupid gay asshole. he's with a bunch of girls, flirting with them ):< he's one fuckg flirt. ah, i dont wanna talk about him.

there's tution tonight -.- i hate it man. i cant watch super funkies. that show is bloody funnaye :D and, im almost done with shuting's blog (: im damn happy! -grins. im gna go t jx's house t do my history hmk. im late for one week aldy. awwwwww D: i shall end here (:

2005-12-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

hais ): i cant find my adidas sling bag! RAHHHHHHH! fuck it. im so looking forward t buy that bag okay. and they say out of stock. every shop says so ))): im so dissapointed okay. then mummy saw this new design adidas slipper. she said she would buy for me. but in the end never, cause they dont have the size that i wanted. im damn sway lah. stupid shittaye day ):

im having a big headache now. im damn sad lah ): i couldnt get my adidas jacket too. mummy says its too expensive. oh, mummy told me that cheryl chew > my pri school friend. she's working as a starhub promoter. im changing my singnet line t starhub's one. i think they'll give me a free ipod. i dont know if its real, cause mummy says she couldnt remember what cheryl's mum said. if its true, i definitely will change t starhub's. but still i prefer t have creative's mp3 player. its nicer than ipod's.

okay, i really cant take the headache anymore. im gng blog till here. rahhhhh ):

2005-12-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

mummy's gna buy me that adidas sling bag! YAY! and im getting new school shoes. i dont really wanna change my school shoes. though its tattered & torned ): that pair of shoes really brings back a lot of memories (:

im thinking & thinking & thinking. i dont know when t go t snow city. im in charge of planning all this. im having a big headache doing that. i need ponki ~~now~~, immediately! i miss gng out with her! she's busy for her cca thingy. hais )):

my brain is dead. i cant do my history hmk. im gna be deadmeat ): i got t hand it up tmr! hais ): somebody, please save me! hais ):

i'll blog till here. im gng out now (:

2005-12-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

mum's nagging at me because of my stupid phone bills. agrr ): i wont be able t go out aldy. she says i spend too much. this is damn stupid okays. im damn freaked off by what she says. i just hate it when things doesnt goes the way i want it t be )): i need someone t help me for my history project! its supposed t be hand it by today. but i intend t hand it in on next monday (: cause im lazy t do lah. that's all for today. i wont be blogging for sometime.

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im feeling depressed now. someone, please talk on the phone with me ): i just need someone t talk t me. im stupid okay, cause i dont even know what's bothering me -.- fuck it man.

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2005-12-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

rotting at home the whole day. ponki's gng out with her cousin so i cant go t her house :( i've been thinking the whole day, about our next outing.

im planning t go snow city t celebrate christmas. because of the advertisement that i saw on tv. haha :D i wanna enjoy the snow. i wanna throw snowballst attack them! im naughty, cant help it lah :) im damn excited now, i cant wait t go there lah. but have t discuss with them first. i hope that they'll go.

gna work tmr. i have t sleep aldy. too tired t type any further. that's all for today.

j'ai ecrit votre nom a mon coeur

2005-11-30T20:14:00.000+08:00

sakae was great! yummy yummy! i dont have the appetite t eat ): im feeling very full but i still eat lah. the most delicious food is the bud's ice cream! i ate chocolate flavour, ponki ate mango flavour! :DDD

after sakae, she come t my house (: played my computer till ard 7. then i send her t the bus stop. waited 608 with her. talked awhile, bus came and she went off. that's all for today. nothing t blog ):

2005-11-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

my computer's down for days. so i dont get t blog ): anyway, i fixed it aldy. sunday's outing was fun! we went t www. and i got half tanned, cause i wore a swimmming suit ): im gna go for a good tan during december! i'll blog at night (: i got t go now, sakae with ponki later! :D

thanks qiuting, huihui, kristine, felicia and nichelle! for the tags (: i love all of you ((:

2005-11-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

hais :x i've got this weird feeling that i couldn't describe ):

he came t my house's downstairs just now. he wanted t chat with me so he asked me t go down lah. he's got a new hairstyle and he dyed his hair. he said that im becoming more and more afraid of talking t him. yeah, i am ): i just need time t get over this )): ah whatever. im talking rubbish again :x

2005-11-21T19:53:00.000+08:00

sunday.
went t campus superstar with cheryl, sherman, samuel, ponki, sinhui, karen & one unknown guy. we meet at 9am and i was late (: couldnt wake up in the morning. we reached there ard 10plus. we walk around lah. i've no idea where they're gng or what's gng on, i just follow them everywhere.

i was insane (x i sang with sinhui while walking t the photo shop(: and i was singing damn loudly! haha :D karen was singing too! me and sinhui were playing with sherman's sunglasses. we were trying t act cool (x but we failed t do so ): after that, we went t watch the campus superstar.

karen's crazy, she kept on laughing. i dont know what's she laughing at ): only me and sinhui were standing behind, the others were infront of us. we watched for a while then we decided t go kbox t practise singing (: i dont rly wanna go cause its kinda boring. but still i went (:

karen's singing was great. we asked her t join the campus superstar but she dont want ): she and sinhui sang very well at kbox(: ponki din sing and i dont know why she's feeling down. hais :x the kbox thingy was cheap lah. but the bad thing is we only sing for like two hours? and we have t leave -.-

we went back t watch the superstar again -.- cause ponki wanna see derrick. i was there for a while only cause i have wedding dinner at night. i have t go home early t prepare.

the wedding dinner was great (: i get t eat lotsa delicious food. im gna gain weight ):

today.
stay at home all day. boring boring boring. eugene msg me just when i've wake up. he asked when will we get t go out together -.- cause i promised him tht i would go out with him one fine day. but in the end i din. i dont know why i din kept my promise t him ): i love him in the past but not now. cause i know miracles wont happen. till now, i still feel the same. being single is still the best thing. (: i think too much aldy. anyway, i'll go out with him next week (: i hope that everything's gna be fine. and i wont think so much about it -.-

new layout (: im still dissatisfied with my layout. not nice and good enough ): i need t improve more on making layouts. ((:

that's all for today. bye!

2005-11-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

went t work at bishan today (: i was given three stacks of flyers. and now, my left arm's aching ): i finish giving out the flyers within 2\1 hr. i went t look for ponki after that.

she's having a hard time giving out the flyers. so i accompany her lohs but i couldnt help her t give. later i'll get scolding from the boss. some people were kind enough t take alot of flyers from her (: ard 5 or 6, we went t yoshi t have lunch. hais :x so late then eat our lunch.

after eating, we went t watch the campus superstar (: im gna support cheryl and sherman tmr! haha :D i reached home at 7plus. i dont wanna eat dinner, im too full :x

that's all for today, im lazy t type (: bye!

2005-11-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10 today. went back t school t check out the results. i've got pure bio and combined science and im in the second class ): i wanna have pure science! agrrr. i got into geography class, im gna be real dead this time. starting first day of school, we're gna have TEST! im gna fail for sure )): hais )): oh and jiaxin passed me the photos! haha :D i look damn weird lah ): after that, ponki and i rush over t the class gathering as we're late.

we meet charlene and the others at gwc's mac. and waited for the guys but only zhengyi turn up. the others nvr come. went bowling (: at first, i dont dare t play but after tht i played awhile. and rush off t have my lunch and work. ponki and i have our lunch at tbp. saw many pple that i know. i saw kw and fransis. kw doesnt recognize me as i wear contact lens today and i've change my hairstyle. i went over t say 'hi' t him. and he asked me "who are you?" i was shocked that he couldnt recognise me -.-! after that i rushed off t work.

by the time i reached my work place, i thought i was late. but my boss was even late than me. and the other girls also havent reach. i sat down at one corner, waiting for them. after a while, i called my boss. and she told me she was on her way >:( i've wasted money t sit taxi just t reach there. if i know she's late, i would have take the bus instead. she asked me and ponki t wait for the girls t reach. we waited for 30mins but we din see a single soul -.- so we went t the coffee shop t look for our boss. our boss dont believe us, so she went over t see. then she came back, and say "dont have lehs." we aldy told her that they aint there but she just dont believe. hais :x

she called the girls and they said they waited at the mrt. and they thought its 330, they've got it wrong its 4. so they waited there for the boss. and boss scolded them as she doesnt like late comers. two new girls came today, so our flyers were much lesser! easy job sia, i was sent t toa payoh mrt station t give flyers! me and ponki got the same location (:

the pple there were nice. there's this aunt says this, "girl ah, we help you take flyers so that you could finish giving out and go home early." thats what the aunt says, aint she sweet (: i give out the flyers quite fast and so i finished faster than ponki. i went t look for her. i was standing at one side waiting for her t finish. today, both of us finish quite fast. within half an hour we've finished giving out all the flyers.

we went home after that. we saw sherman and samuel at tbp. haha :D we bought honey red tea! its so yummy yummy! reached home at 7. mum and dad wasnt at home. grandpa was the only person at home. mum and dad dont know go where le -.-

mum din cook today as grandmother asked us t go over t her house t have dinner cause fifth uncle came. his son was damn cute kays xD he asked my mum t buy him biscuits! so after dinner, mum took him downstairs t buy biscuits. now she isnt at home, oh aint i free!

oh i've forgotton t add this. i saw seejia at tbp today. he's gng over t chinatown for an interview. haha :D he says my new hairstyle was nice! i miss him! cause he's my stupid barney!

that's all for today, im tired ): bye!

2005-11-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

i woke up 1235 today. then ate my breakfast\lunch and watch tv. i went for tut at 315. i thought i was late so i went into the room. ms low said the Emaths lessons hasnt end yet. i was so malu lah -.-

lesson was fun. yeah, crap with ms low and cheryl alot (: ms low's damn funnaye kays. she said that she would bring gummy the next lesson! in order t keep me awake cause im always so tired during lessons. i got flu during lesson, the room was damn cold lah. we finished lesson at 545. after that, i went t buy honey red tea! and mum's coffee. haha :DD honey red tea was yummy! when i reached home, i realised that i din buy mum's coffee. so i went out again t buy her coffee. mum's so troublesome :x

oh and im gng for tmr's class gathering since charlene insisted. im just too lazy t go lah cause after that i'll have t rush t work. and i wont enjoy myself t the fullest. ah, whatever.

that's all for today's update. i'll try t update more tmr (: bye!

she's got me spinning*

EDITED;

aww. ponki and eddy know their results aldy! humpf ): it aint fair! not fair! not fair! hubby nvr help me t check out my results! she helped ponki! agrr. im getting jealous! boohooooos ): im gna pull hubby's ears if i saw her someday! (: hehehehehhh, im EVIL :D

/EDITED;

2005-11-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

im damn lazy t blog lah ): im so sleepy for the whole day. i woke up early today. yeah so i tend t get sleepy in the afternoon.

mum reminded me about my tution. i almost forgot that im having class tmr. hais :x i hate t attend lessons and do all those maths qns that i dislike. no choice, i promised t work hard for next year. im lousy in maths so i gotta attend maths lessons in order t improve. krtc starts lessons way too early. mr ewan will only start his lessons in dec. so i get t relax and free from all his nagging. actually, he's quite nice t me lah. except that i wld always not do his hmk.

damn it. i miss chatting with xiaohei. wtf. i din call him for days and he's like in a bad mood. ah whatever, since he says he's not. i wonder wld i be in the same class as him? i rly like t crap with him lah. he's my good buddy! yes, and i told him almost everything that happen in my whole life. i told ponki alot of things too. i trust the both of them (: they're my bestest friends. this kinda friends extinit aldy lah. nobody's gna snatch them away from me! get this right! >:( haha :DD xiaohei, im sorry that i din call ya ): really very sorry!

aww. im damn excited for friday's job. im gna collect the photo and money from jiaxin, go back t school t check out the results. lastly, i have t go t work. it will only start at four so i get t enjoy myself first before i go for work! its kinda fun [:

its 145am now, i've got t sleep. bye!

sugar, we're goin' down;

2005-11-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

agrr. mum's freaking off, because of my phone bills. what an ass. its only 170bucks. anyway, i've got myself a job. so i dont have t worry about my bills. haha :D

2005-11-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

i went back t school with ponki today. then i waited for her at the staircase beside the security room. that bloody security guard doesnt allow me t go in the school cause i wasnt wearing my uniform. i hate t wear school uniform! so i waited for her like less than an hour.

after her prefect interview, we went t tiong t have lunch. we ate pizza! haha, thats nice :D and the root beer float was yummy yummy! went t her hse after tht. we chat quite alot lah. i went home at 6plus (: grandpa's waiting for me t go home and have dinner.

boring day ): anyway, im gna start work! haha, im excited! ((((: bye!

2005-11-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

im lazy t blog lah.

2005-11-11T20:42:00.000+08:00

i've stopped moving forward
i turned back
just to look at you for
one last time

im letting you go
im giving up on you
i just wanna let my heart
stop aching from this moment

i told you that
i've stop loving you
i've stop tearing
i lied
i cried every night
just to release all the sadness
i isolated myself
not wanting anyone to come near

im waiting for the day
hoping that i'll be happy
without you nor anyone
if i could do it, i will live with no regrets

2005-11-11T18:58:00.000+08:00

went for interview at gwc. they're kinda busy so they asked me to go back there at 3. me, ponki and charlene walk ard then went to ps to look for the bag i want. hais :x its 90bucks and i dont think im gna buy tht. walk ard there and we saw kym ng and wang lu jiang at there filming. haha :DDD after two hours, they're still there. pathetic sia (: i bought jay's november chopin! but i din get the poster, limited poster sia. whatthehell!

went back to gwc to look for the boss. as usual, fill up the form and give him. then off we go to tiong, and we saw this girl giving out flyers. we said we're also looking for the job. so she gave us the boss's contact number. the boss is her aunt! omfg. she's nice and kind!

me and ponki are gng for the interview tmr, at chinatown 230. i hope i can get this job so that i wont have to work at yoshi. i hate to work at restuarants ): im damn excited about tmr's interview! its 20bucks per day. and if i earn enough money i will be able to buy tht bag! yay!

thats all for today, bye!

2005-11-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

yay! ponki, charlene and cheryl's gna go interview with me tmr! after tht, we gna go out and have some fun! haha :DD im gna have fun!

stuck at home the whole day ): ponki isnt online, cant crap with her and eddy. hais :x its not nice to crap with eddy only. both of them wanna shoot me back in friendster. but ponki isnt online so cannot lohs. holidays are damn boring.

nothing much to blog, bye!

my cute boy <3

2005-11-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

happy birthday shuling! (:

till now, youre still the one <3

2005-11-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

new layout :DD

haha. i just play with the new brushes that i've downloaded. not really that nice lah ):

now that i've cool down. i will write a proper post (: hmm. interview is just tmr. hais :x dont know i can get the job anot. hope that i can get the job! (: that's all, nothing much to blog about. bye!

2005-11-09T18:58:00.000+08:00

IM NOT GNA BUY THT SLING BAG ANYMORE. MY MUM IS NOTHING BUT A PROMISE BREAKER. I HATE HER. SINCE I WAS LITTLE SHE NEVER EVER KEPT HER PROMISE THT SHE SAID. SINCE SHE DOESNT WNA BUY ANYTHINGS FOR ME ANYMORE. FINE, I WILL EARN MONEY AND BUY BY MYSELF. SHE'S SUCH A STINGY ASS.

I HATE TO GO OUT WITH HER, I HATE TO BE AT HOME WITH HER, I HATE TO SEE HER, I HATE HER FOR SCOLDING ME, I HATE HER FOR JUDGING MY FRIENDS, I HATE HER FOR EVERYTHING. I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME. I HATE THIS HOME. ALL I GET IS NOTHING BUT SCOLDING AND BEATING(seldom lah) FROM HER. SHE TREATS ME LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT WHILE OTHERS ARE LIKE TREASURES TO HER. SHE SAYS IM REBELLIOUS, SO WHAT? THE OTHERS TREAT ME A THOUSAND AND MILLION TIMES NICER THAN HER! SHE ALWAYS DOESNT ALLOW ME TO DO THIS AND THAT. WHY CANT I HAVE MORE FREEDOM LIKE OTHERS DO? I RLY HATE GOD FOR GIVING ME THIS LIFE. HOW I WISH I WASNT BORN. I HATE ALL THE EMOTIONS THATS INSIDE ME.

SHE'S ONE OF THE REASONS THAT IM HAVING DEPRESSION AND STRESS TOO. SHE'S ALWAYS FORCING ME TO BUY THINGS THAT I DONT LIKE, EAT THE FOOD THAT I HATE, ETC. SHE'S ONE FCUKING ASS (god forgive me for saying this) SHE'S NEVER CONSIDERED ABOUT MY FEELINGS. ALL SHE DO IS TO CRITICISE ME IN EVERYTHING THAT I DO. SHE THINKS SHE PERFECT, BUT THE FACT IS SHE'S NOT. SHE'S JUST TOO PROUD OF HERSELF. SO WHAT IF SHE'S MY MUM? IM ALSO A HUMAN. I HAVE MY OWN WILL AND I DONT NEED ANYONE TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

AGRR. SHE SPOILS MY MOOD :@
sorry that i used caps ):

2005-11-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

mum allows me t go for monday's class gathering! haha :DD we're gna have fun. we're gng kbox. i dont think i will dare t sing infront of so many pple. plus, there's guys over there -.- anyway, im gna have fun again! staying at home is way too boring.

i've been wanting t go out everyday. i aint trouble, i just wna have some fun. im just too bored, lazy t do homeworks and stuffs. hais :x i miss mystupidbarney! i wna go out with him but when will the both of be free? hais :x one fine day, im gna go out with mycuteboy and mystupidbarney! (:

2005-11-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

my computer went insane. almost cant come online (: now its fine, cause i fixed it.

stayed at home all day. i was cleaning my table cause its full of rubbish. and i realised its dusty! eww. i hate it man, i shld have clean it long time ago ): now my table is much more cleaner than before. i threw away most of my stuffs. because of this, i din get t call xiaohei. i din call him for a long time :x anyway, he's got his tv so he doesnt care so much.

mum's gna take me out tmr! yay! i get t buy the crumpler sling bag! finally, im getting a new sling bag! im so happy! and when i told mum tht there's class gathering on monday, she said if i wna go then go lohs. i was surprised when she said tht. normally, she wont allow t go out everyday but now it seems tht she allowed me t. strange but who cares :DD

im gng for interview on thursday (: i need moneyae. im gna get myself a mp3, i dont need mum t buy for me (: i wonder when will i have enough money t buy it.

im tired, bye!

2005-11-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like blogging.
bye!

2005-11-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

woke up 9plus gng t 10. i was late again but ponki,karen and yj was even late than me. jiaxin, dawn and i were the first (: yj had t eat her breakfast so we've got t wait for her t finish so we cld go escape.

we reached there at ard 12. we played wet & wild, its ~~scary!~~ (: i hate alpha 8, i was soaked and cold. then we sat the pirate ship, i will feel as if im flying when i sat on it! lol. next is the wind revolution! i love it man! oh and the rollar coaster was a meany! its speed is damn fast and my stomach and leg was pain lah. oh and the stupid haunted house is damn fcuking. those people are scaring us and they wont let us go, they surrounded us and threw fake body parts. i banged on the door trying t open it but i cant! i scream like nobody's business and now i've got no more voice t scream ): finally, they let us out and we're like oh-thank-god. karen and dawn said the people outside were laughing at us for screaming like hella.

i played some games and win a bear! dawn helped me with it! thanks, girl! karen sat the inverter twice! and she sat it by herself cause we're all too tired. she cld even ran after the ride and thts amazing. went off ard 225, we were late for the kbox. sinhui called us many times but we din answered as we put our bags at the locker.

reached kbox ard 4. kbox's service was bad, real bad. we called the so-called-waiter for so many times and yet he din come. the food was expensive too. we sing until 7 and we still wna sing (: but too bad have t go home. the bill was ard 100bucks, kinda expensive lah ): me and sinhui are like crazy women. we kept on singing non-stop. im having sore throat now ): i gave sinhui and yj a hug before i went home! :D

by the time i reached home, my hse was aldy full of unknown people. and i really hate t see strangers in my hse. i dont even know if their my relatives. my mum knows them but i dont. i bathed and came online without my dinner. i ate my dinner after 'my relatives' finished. today's dinner wasnt really nice. mum cooked those food tht i dont really like t eat.

chatting with him just now. i send him a picture and.. he knows about it now. i feel tht after i told him tht, he treated me differently. i dont know how t describe the feeling lah.

im tired now, played all day long (:
youre my eyecandy.

EDIT

happy bday yj!
fourteen aldy must be guai hoh.
wish you gd luck in everything you do!
mummy loves you!

EDIT

2005-11-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

new layout soon. [:

2005-11-05T17:04:00.000+08:00

im tired today, woke up at 11plus. cousins were making alot of noisy tht i cldnt sleep ):

i did some exercise in the morning. long time nvr exercise le, so now my body's aching. and im having gastric pain again. i din eat my lunch, i drank water only (:

oh and i din switch off the stove. mummy's boiling soup and she forgot t tell me t off it. so i left it there t boil and in the end the whole pot turns black, chao-ta. the water dry up and the ikan bilis are stick on t the pot. mummy's gna scold me for not watching over the stove ): nobody's home, and im playing my com. so i left it there :x daddy's angry now. he's blaming mummy! hais :x its all my fault ):

i wonder if mummy wld allow me t go out real late. i wna enjoy myself lah. oh and we're having chalet during dec. i think its gna be fun! :D

maybe we shouldn't have
started it in the first place
we knew what's the ending
we knew the heart would bleed
but still we continue on

2005-11-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

relatives came t my hse and stay over night. hais ): its gna be a horrible night. im gna suffer like hella. no peaceful nights, no long hours of sleep. aww ): im gng crazy!

andandand, brother was a stupid ass. he said me and ponki were lesbians. he's a meany pok! :x
god bless me; amen!

2005-11-04T19:21:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY;

aww. i was sick, serious headache. its the first time im having such a serious headache. actually, i cant go shopping with ponki. but the next day i was okay! haha :D miracles do happens sometimes.

and xiaohei, i wasnt angry with you lah. my bills were too 'high' so i cant sms or call you. so dont misunderstood me okays? im trying t be nice t you so dont be such a mean boy lah :x

FRIDAY;

today was fun! went t jurong east t check the kbox thingy. i was so shy when i asked the person-in-charge about the kbox. then i signed up for the membership thingy. it cost me only 5bucks. after tht, went t queensway t buy my shorts. erm, it took me a long time t find it. it cost 11bucks lah. mummy says im stupid, cause i din argue the price lower. ahh, forget it since i aldy bought tht.

ponki and i went t bugis after tht. ponki was supposed t buy tht newbie shirt but she din. so we walked ard there, and i saw some really nice skirts. i thought of buying it. its kinda short lah but i really like it alot. im gna ask mummy t buy for me! hmm, im starting t like skirts :x i dont know why. is it a great or bad thingy? whatever.

went t OG. ponki bought one pink converse collar shirt which was really nice (: then we went t surf paradise and look at the clothes. i saw one sleeveless shirt which was really nice. both ponki and i wna buy tht but we dont really have money. we've t save some for sunday's celebration ):

both of us went home at ard 5plus. i really enjoy myself today! it was fun t go out with ponki! haha :D

im tired, bye!

2005-11-02T21:29:00.000+08:00

hais. i cant call xiaohei and im damn bored. im afraid tht my bill will be expensive so i din call him. and i wna be a really good girl these few days. so tht mummy will allow me t go shopping! hais :x im depressed aldy ):

2005-11-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

new layout. nothing much, just changed here and there.

ponki and yj came my hse t discuss how t celebrate yj's bday. we decided t go kbox. im gna be broke if i dont get myself a job asap. i really need money NOW. oh man, i wna go work at yoshi but im lazy. my wishlist is getting longer and longer so i'll need more and more money! mum says giving out flyers aint a great job, the pay's kinda low. i think i'll go t yoshi's there for an interview. no choice, i'll have t work.

okay, i've decided t buy the FBT shorts and the newbie tee. im gna ask mummy if i cld go shopping with ponki. its hard t get money from her. hais :x i really dont know what t do. my brain is gna crack real soon. OKAY I'VE DECIDED T WORK, NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES! :x

im tired now, lazy t continue.

2005-11-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

today was fun! ponki and i ate SAKE and its cost us about 50 bucks. i've forgotton tht today is public holidays so they dont serve sushi BUFFET. anyway, we enjoy our lunch. thought its expensive but its quite worth it lah. oh and we've decided t go shopping for clothes this friday! aww. i dont know if mum will allow. cause i rly spend lotsa money for my phone bill.

i've thought of getting a job so tht i can have money t spend. but it seems tht its hard t look for a stupid job tht suits me. im lazy t go t work but i wna have money t spend but no choice lah. i've asked winnie t help me look out for some jobs. ehh, she's giving out flyers so i thought of doing the same job as her (:

hmm. i was chatting with hailiang in msn just now. we chat alot and yeah. he said im intellectual! haha :D he's kinda nice t talk t. its the first time tht our conversation was so long. we seldom chat and he's always the first t chat with me. im shy :x

ponki and yj is coming over t my hse tmr! yeah! we're gna have lotsa FUN. we're gng t the park after tht. im gna play the SWING! its been ages since i last played with it! (:

aww. its late now, i've to baa baa. (:

2005-10-31T20:35:00.000+08:00

went for a hair cut toda (: my hair's damn short now but its nice. and im gng out with ponki tmr. we're having SAKE! :D sinhui's gna be jealous of us! im lazy t continue.
bye.

2005-10-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

cousins came t my house in the afternoon. i watched full house with vivien, the show was damn nice! rain was damn cute!

aint he cute?

after watching the show, went t 711 t buy some tibits with vivien. and i waited for him at my house's void deck. he came t look for his friend so he also come and find me loh. im kinda happy lah (: oh and he told seejia where i stay. so i think seejia will 'visit' me someday -.-" i wld welcome him [: and im might be gng mac with seejia t do hmk. im 'hardworking' ((:

bedtime. end.

2005-10-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

sorry tht i din gave you a present.
hmm. at least you asked from me, so i'll give you one asap. i was wondering, why you demand a present from me. you've aldy received a present from her (: anyway, im not afraid of you nor am i sad. i just feel so weird when i stand so close to you, and you show me concern. dont worry [: i'll love you forever. myhappyandcutebigboy!

you make me smile like a fool
you make me cry like a baby
but still i love you
its never a moment, its a forever.
tell me what's forever, prove it to me.

2005-10-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

the 115th post
and its the last day of school [:

got back my report book. my results were quite okay but im not happy with it. especially my science results, i got a B instead of an A ): i cld have gotton an A if i studied on electricity! ): anw, its over. meet up with xiaohei after school. went t the playground t chit chat. he's depressed! its the first time tht i heard him saying tht he's depressed! aww. there's nothing to be depressed about, just take things easy. i've been through tht okay! :p went home ard 5. he's a baddie! he din send me home! im walking alone and do you know how pathetic it is?!

hais. mum doesnt allow me t go out with ponki! what the hell. ITS HOLIDAYS ALDY! fucking ass. she's so unreasonable! ): im tired aldy. end.

2005-10-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

tell me what's going on,
i dont wanna be ~~left out~~.

2005-10-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

ah. I WILL NEVER EVER CALL YOU. there's nothing for us to talk about. plus, you wna play your stupid computer games. so i'll grant your wish! no calls from tonight onwards. ehh, but do i really mean it? i hate to be so fickle minded ): aiya. you wont give a damn lah. you said, ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS. (: and i know you're reading my bloody blog. please lah, go and play your games and dont come here and kpo. sometimes, i really need t talk t you. but i just dont know how t tell you. and its so quiet in the phone. im selfish, unreasonable, bad tempered and childish. i really wished that i can tell you all the things thts been bottled up inside my heart. it seems so difficult and i realised tht we've lost communication between the both of us. why do things turn out t be like this? hais :
i hate guys who left girls alone
whenever they wanna play games.
its irritating :

oh, tmr's modular day! songlin's bday! happy bday! mdm ang booked me for the stupid solar car thingy. and the good thing is i get t relax. dont need t move from one place t another. it will be boring and (maybe) i will have t teach them how t build it.

im lazy t continue it. end.

2005-10-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

i cried for you;
because you mean alot to me.

if only you knew
how i felt about you.

2005-10-24T22:23:00.000+08:00

hais. why cant i just think before i say ? now there's no use to regret it aldy. im afraid tht they might do sth bad to me tmr. im worried ): i hope all this hate will end. but it seems tht they cant stop this hate. im so tired of all this things thats making me depressed. what's enough is enough.

im depressed and stress. i hate this complicated life. i hate to be so lonely. nobody cares for me whenever im down. i cant reached them, they seem sosososososososo far away from me. since the day i step into the class, i was fated to be alone. i blame it on myself, because im imperfect.

i tried to call xiaohei but he din answer it. where are you? i called you umpteen times. maybe you fall asleep? or you just left your phone somewhere else. who knows ): i hate to be so bottled up. without you, i rly dont know how to carrying on with my life. youre the one who consoles me, youre not a baby sitter. dont you ever say tht again. cause i'll feel hurt lah. dont ever make me cry like a baby again ): we are forever friends(: and i will try not to be so bad tempered. you're definitely my bestie in the class [:

hais. i'll try to look on the brightside of life. i've gotta live life to the fullest. as for you, i think i'll just gave up on this wishful thinking.
i wanna to love and be loved
but on the other hand, can i ?

2005-10-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

new layout (: simple and nice.

stay at home all day. not really tht boring lah. watched full house in the afternoon. one word : nice! in the evening, cousins came t my house. kinda noisy lah and i hate it ): went t ahma house t have dinner. ehh. im looking forward t tmr. cause xiaohei cut his hair! haha (: erm. i promise i wont laugh at you lah.

2005-10-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

im happy today (: finally, i called you up. haha :D

happy birthday eugene! (:
i'll miss you. youre always myhappy&cutebigboy.

2005-10-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

i cant stop the tears;
from flowing down.

i'll stop bothering pple,
i aint fit to be a friend.
sorry that i've treat you so badly.
i shldnt be so close to you.

~~i dont wanna let you know why i cry~~
i know im unreasonable,
im not angry with you anymore.

you will be a much happier person,
without me bothering you (:

2005-10-21T22:14:00.000+08:00

the emotional side;
that nobody understands.

its just me who's making it complicated.
maybe i shldnt be born in this world. (:

i'll nvr smile again.
cause i've lost everything.
its too late t go back.
i wasnt perfect all along.

depression.
cutting myself is the only way.
it takes the pain away..

2005-10-21T20:44:00.000+08:00

i just hate to be so sensitive.

2005-10-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

new layout. thanks to minyi's codes for the highlighted thingy. its kinda ugly. hais, im just not in the mood to do this layout. so everything seems so ugly.

i din talk to xiaohei, cause i dont want too. since he says tht im noisy so i'll shutup =x im damn quiet during history lesson ): hais. feel so depressed all of a sudden. i dont feel like talking to anyone for the whole day. i just wna walk alone. im so bottled up. if only i can call xiaohei now, but i know tht he wont answer the call. he's busy. hais, im so lonely ):

i lied to myself,
that im not lonely anymore..

2005-10-19T22:39:00.000+08:00

hais. i dont know what shld i blog about ): im sad and depressed. tell me shld i love you. i dont know shld i still love you. i know you still miss your girl so i'll stop this love for you. hais, this isnt the life that i wanted. simple life is the best (:

hmm. during recess, sinhui took my teddy and torture it -.- poor teddy! and the next person was ponki, she flip my teddy here and there. sandy and karen was nice cause they din do anything to it(: aiya. blah blah blah. class was boring today. after school, went home straight away lah.

it's late now, i'll end here.

i kept asking myself,
why do i love you?

2005-10-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

XIAOHEI IS READING MY BLOG. haha (: you can say im lame. but to me, i dont really feel so. im just trying to express my feelings [: and you gave me a kinda weird feeling which i dont know how to express it. oh, forget it.

2005-10-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

xiaohei! im gonna prove to the others that our friendship will last forever! yes, and i mean what i say. (: i dont mind what others said about us. all i know is that you're my bestie! youre the only one who stays by my side when i need you! thanks alot. i'll remember you no matter what.

im putting on a fake smile,
when im infront of everyone.
but deep down,
im crying inside.

nobody knows about it
and neither do they feel it.
but you knew it the moment you hear
and see my expressions.

youre the only one,
who truely knows how i feel.

(:

2005-10-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

im sick. im feeling awful now. hais ><. i dont wna go to school tmr lah. haishaishais.

i got back some of my results today. erm, i did badly. mummy's gna strangle me to death =x ehh im not sure of the marks lah :D and erm, i sit back to the same old place in class! im damn happy lah (: im not lonely anymore! im so abnormal today. im not myself lately, i dont know why. i feel that sth is bothering me. and i know what it is ): i feel so stress and depressed. i need to talk to xiaohei! but he's like ... ... ): aiya. i dont know how to express it out. i think that he's treating me very differently. maybe im too sensitive =\ but i hope our friendship will last forever (: its hard to have a friend tht will always stay by your side, make you smile when youre down and lend you a listen ear when you needed one. ((:

ehh. i'll end here. im lazy to type :p

2005-10-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

the 100th post.

raining day. i din fall asleep in the afternoon. i was watching my fav show : full house. its damn nice and touching! zhien is damn cute! [: how i wish that he cld love me the way just like yingzai love zhien. -sighs. but its impossible tht this would happen. if loving you was a crime, im guilty.

anyway, im looking forward to tomorrow (: finally, ml replied us! hais. she's sick and she's in the hospital so she nvr call us or reply our msg. poor ml. my dear baby, do take care! (: jc wont be gng, only me, doldol, ml, panda and cs. the five of us! haha. we're always together no matter what happens. AND I PROMISED DOLDOL THT I WONT LET MY TEMPER GET IN THE WAY TMR. yesyes, a promise is a promise. I WILL PROVE TO YOU! i will bear with cs and panda's crap. we're meeting so early tmr ): i wna sleep lah! but too bad, the movie starts at 12. gna get up real early cause im a slow poke. not tht pokemon lah. im not so childish -.-

oh, yeah. im gna change this ugly layout real soon. cause i've come up with a new one! (: i'll get it done when i have time. im tired now. i wna wake up real early tmr.

2005-10-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

stay at home all day. im so bored, no nice tv shows. no phone calls, only computer games. im bored with all those stuffs. how i wish my life wld be more exciting. i wna go out and get drunk with my friends ): mummy say i will have to wait till school holidays. im gna try out vodka(donno what's the name), it sounds kinda cool.

yadayada. im so happy! [: im looking forward to monday! i cant wait ><. i think it will be fun if my temper dont get in the way. aww. im tired now. im lazy to blog :
sayonara,
folks!

2005-10-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

xiaohei,

im so sorry tht i made you angry. i shldnt have always talk about him. im so sorry ): and i hope that we will have fun on monday [:

2005-10-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

depression sinks into my heart.
i was never ~~loved~~,
and i will never be ~~loved~~

where's my garbageband prince?
i need him badly ):
im your broken smile princess.

you're always my dirty little secret
i will keep you in my heart forever (:

2005-10-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

oh man.
gave up your past.
forget the girl.
live a brand new life.
let's start a story.
and love me the way i love you.

but i know,
you'll nvr love me.
we'll nvr start a story.

im depressed.
i feel like cutting myself up.
it releases the sadness in me.
i love the colour of blood.

2005-10-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

okayokay,

i admit that i love eugene tai wei ting (:

yesyesyes. i love him but i know that we'll nvr start a story and he will nvr be mine(:

2005-10-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

wake up at 12 today. stay at home the whole day. some fcuking ass just keeps nagging at me the whole day which rly piss me off like hella. i just hate to stay at home whenever she's at home. i cant take her unreasonable attitude at all. she spoils my goody day. she's a bad tiger. she's uncute and she's a bullshit to me. i wna get outta this fcuking hse and go to my friend's hse. she ruins my life, fucked up life.

i talk to xiaohei on the phone just now. we joked lah and i was laughing like a retarded person. ima psychotic ass. xiaohei says tht he's talking to a crazy woman on the phone (he's referring to me) he's like suspecting me and xiaopooh lah. cause whenever i talk about him, i'll get high! [: oh, he's so cute that i cant resist. i told him that i've made a certification of marriage of me and doldol. he laugh like hella. here's the picture.

isnt this nice? IM LOVIN' IT! (:

tht's all for today (:
ilovemycutebigboy!

2005-10-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

last pp today. maths was kinda hard. but i cld handle it (:

eugene meet me at bm's mac today. after awhile, he went off with seejia. then left me and doldol. we went to harbour front to have our lunch, SAKE SUSHI BUFFET. actually, xiaohei was gng with us. we quarrel lah so he went home lah. im sorry ><. i went home at about 5plus. mum scolded me, i heck care her [:

im lazy to type lah. so it will be a short post today. im looking forward to monday (:

i love you deeper as day passes
i never told you,
i wna hold you (:

2005-10-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

i walked a thousand miles
just to see if youre alright
just to hold you tight tonight

i dont mind wasting my time
just to dream about you all day
its part of my daily life needs

im tired of this world
take me away to somewhere
where we belong
im begging you to
be my escape (:

2005-10-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

i broke my record for lit test. i've wrote half a page for just one qn! I'VE IMPROVED! haha(: i still wna write more for my last qn, but i dont have time. hais ): if not i can score more lah. my palm was pain, i cld see the veins on it. i cld bearly hold the pen properly ><.

ehh. i went to have breakfast at BM's mac. lotsa things happened today. i have no wish to talk about it anymore. let the matter rest. itsallmyfault. i was the one who created the trouble ): erm. but after that okay aldy. we're back to the five of us, the clique(: i stayed at mac till 1plus. mum nagged at me for gng out to play.

that's all for today. im lazy to type =x

2005-10-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

he's really cute. the way he waved at me, i cant forget. oh, god. tell me how i feel. im confused with the emotions. im afraid that this weak heart of mine will be hurt again. the wound wld open again. hais. life is hard for me to go on ...

be my escape ;

2005-10-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

geography exam was kinda easy lah. just that i din study so i flunk it. mrs ong scold me for nothing. im just shading my register and she says, "girl! did i ask you to start doing?" i was like HUH? she's one bloody ass. all she knows is gng ard scolding the students in hss.

after the test, i went to have breakfast with dolly. oh, im in a bad luck today. then saw lotsa friends and some even gossip about me and ml's matter. its like, they're so busybody lah. what if guys tagged along with us? its no big deal and there's nothing to misunderstood. they too, always ask guys to go out with them. but that was in the past. for the past few months, i've heard enough of their gossips. the worst is the whole class is gossiping about it. it just freaks me off badly.

i went to the park to have some fun but in the end. something bad happened that i threw my temper again. aww. i din mean it, im just feeling so pissed off. sorry! seejia and eugene came. but the others went home cause i asked them to. then we went to tbp to look for dolly they all.

went to dolly's hse ard 2plus or so. went home at ard 3. bath and surfed the net.

2005-10-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

the 88th post for this blog.

tution in the afternoon. forgotton all about it, mr ewan rang me up. after tut, went to tiong to get some stuff. eugene asked me to go and look for him. ehh. i was shy when i saw him. haha(: he asked me to go home early. haha. i feel so touched. cause he actually care for me! ((:

i went home and now im here blogging. im gng out to have dinner.

boy, play the guitar for me

2005-10-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

my new layout with the help of photoshop. haha(: just got the cd from tricia. thanks, girl! ehh. my designing is damn terrible. i need to brush it up. oh yes, no tution tmr! i can sleep till the sun's burning my butt. i dont know what the hella im saying. haha :D that's all.

2005-10-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

maths pp 1 today was kinda hard. as the setter is ms ruth lee known as the cunning teacher -.- i've left one qn blank as i dont have enough time to get back to it. this time mr ewan is gna kill me doing the pp so slowly. pe theory was kinda okay. i just fill in those answers blindly cause i've no idea how to answer those qns. but some qns i can handle.

i went to mac to have breakfast! haha (: i help dolldoll buy the melody stuff toy as she wanted it. xiaohei joined us after we've finished our breakfast. we walked for a while. and then i throw temper again. hais. when will i stop being so petty? im wondering, wondering and wondering. but in the end, i still follow him lah. i went to his hse. drink, sit and chat. then suddenly his mum came home. i was kinda shocked tht she asked me why i nvr went into the hse. yadaayadaa.

xiaohei sent me home! haha (: okay, he promised me lah :p reached home, bathed and now im here.
i shall blog till here. anyway, i feel like closing this blog. (: dont ask me why, cause i wont ans you.
end.

2005-10-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

eugene's cute when he waved to me!
aww. i still cant forget that day!
im gna ask him out!
haha (:
he's cute and he's mine.

2005-10-02T15:20:00.000+08:00

on hiatus.
i will only be back on 14october.
and i hope tht everything will be back to normal again
i dont wish to hate anyone.
i just wanna have a simple life.

anyway, happy birthday yanting (:

exams are tmr. hais. stress again. i haven start my revision. how am i gna do well for my exams? im getting worst! ):
due to exam period, xiaohei cant go to his grandma hse. so he cant come to my hse and visit me too. hais ): im feeling awful. having cough and flu for the past few weeks.

im tired tired tired
end.

2005-09-27T19:28:00.000+08:00

its a terrible day. depression and sadness falls on me again.

he left me for another girl. i hate him. whenever he needs me, he'll chat with me. but now, he's got ML* so he abandon me. he says that he needs her more than me, he needs me too but not as much as her. he just know ML for a few weeks and he's in love with her! im shocked and sad. how cld this happen? i regretted for introducing new friends to him.

im petty, jealous and unprettaye. i know we cant be together. i knew that long ago but i still wanna love you. its seems that it aint worth it anymore. i've decided to give up. i'll never care about all the things aldy. but what i cant torlerate is she's always telling me things that you've said to her. okay. i aint mean, i just dont like to be reminded of some sad memories. sorry if my words hurt you.

conclusion for today's post

- forget everything about HIM.
- ignore all the things she've said.
- start a brand new simple life! (:
- nvr get DEPRESSED or SAD anymore! (:

PS : * fake name/short form.

end.